No, I wont...

No, I wont go out, too much effort, is everything today. I will go out really, ooww, I want today to go quick so tomorrow can be here and then I can go out, and buy gloves.

Come on Natasha, you lazy person.

I shouldnt wake up early, I should wake up not late but normal time if that exists. I stayed at Ashas last night after a party and Had a strange dream about a big building that sold crumpets and tea in, also that we moved ashas room around for her and it didnt look different (only because we moved her pictures, but yes). I came back on the train at about 9, and it was very cold, and still is inside, but I have hotchocolate, mwuaah haha.I am starting to strongly dislike drunk people, especially when they tell you that they are not drunk. But I like them also, because they say nice things and complement plently. No great scandels last night really, but people who I didnt like too much before I like more now, and people who I liked lots I am getting angry with, is that bad of me? I am not changing my friends, I dont have many friends really that I can talk to lots, is that bad of me to say too? There are school friends, out of school friends and then they are all friends but most of them I dont see often out of places with other people, or by chance, or can call up and say "Want to go to blah de blah?" But I like my house, so I dont mind staying home.I also have jelly. So yeah, hehe.Today, I am booked up suprisingly, after moaning about my lack of friends. But I have triple booked myself, 3 different groups of people, so I cant be that desolate, I am just doing those sympathy things, I think I have plently of friends but what I was trying to say was that not many of them that I can call up and talk to about anything with, yeah thats it I think.I really dont understand myself very often, as other people dont. But maybe that is good.

Aches for the tummy, tummy aches

When will these aches go away.I am waiting for friends to be here, and I am cold, I am hungry, I am lonely. Lonely most of all. I have toothpaste on my spot, when you do that they fade in colour and dont notice you know. Same with eyedrops. Isnt that clever? I think so.I have to find myself something to do, like, origami. I want to make little things to give to people like that, it is my plan.Silly tummy achesI have a tartan scarf you know, it is all red and things. But I still want clogs.

Lots of nice things

Anna now has livejournal! Yep, she does. She is called Clanger (I dont know how to do the little livejournal name thing let, but sorry) so yeah she is very nice and things so I will keep an eye on her and she will be about soon :)Yaaay!And soon, Jonathan will be here and stuff and I will have made a little village of livejournal friends.Yep!

"Hehe, thankyou darling!"

Someone told me my hair was curly today, it was quite cute of them.

Yaaa-heee-heee...

Yaaa-heee-heee-heeey, Oh I wish it could be Christmas, everydaaay-baaah-bah-bah, etc etc. How exciting it is! When I type these things I might sound all sarcastic but I really don't mean it, I am usually just pure happy in real life, in my speaking stuff. So I am.I had nice days, yesterday in the night I went to see the lights with Jonathan and Anna, in Oxford Street and it was all sparkly and snowy (just with no snow) I like snow days. We found a cosy very fancy and nice restaurate (I spell that in the spanish way I think without realising) which did either japanese or chinese or something great, there was another one that we thought it was but I am not good with remembering. The lady had a nice pretty face, she looked sorta delicate and Bjorkish. I was tempted to tell her so but she wasnt there enough for me to. We wrote nice things in crayon on the paper and even wrote the recipt, and gave her money. Yes and I liked that so much that we should go back there. it was called Wagamama. I would put in a picture right here, of me eating lots but I dont have one.Today I went to be with family, and we played lots of card games like Sevens, and I am really quite good at it. I didnt cheat at all (as my grandfather tried to) and my aunty gave me a real nice skirt which is all green. But it does only have 3 buttons which concerns me a little. We ate nice things and then played more cards. Also we found old photoalbums which were fun, and I looked all funny when I was little, with straight hair which is scary because my hair is all red ringlets now.All in all, I liked my weekend lots.

Silly people

I was walking back from food shopping with mum and some stupid know-it-all teenagers were teasing a dog and pretending to kick it. It made me so angry, mum automatically growled "bastards" and me too, I went and comforted the poor dog, who was quite scared really.I really do hate people who do this, and think its fun, they think they know everything. Or maybe they just dont know anything and dont care to know anything else because they are just so empty and dull like that, that they get kicks out of hurting people and creatures that are helpless. It seems to be mostly teenagers and it makes me feel so evil for being my age. I mean, we are not all like this but it seems that a great deal of us are, and calling teenagers "us" is so childish seeing as I am against alot of other teenagers that I have been on about just now. And, childish is not bad. Nor innocent.But on the way home me and mum talked about getting an ugly small dog with a funny squigged up lovely face that all the scary posh people get bred for them, and then all little children will love it, and old ladies.

Ow, ow ow

Ohh oh oh, I feel mixed up today, I feel like lots of telly, and cooking nice things. Except maybe it is too late for that now. I would also like a very very big purple sofa. And a nice cosy house with stripes on the front, and a little wooden door thats nice and small and round-like. Yes, and this is my plan.

Today, It is...

Today, It is foggy. I have not seen fog in so long it is great. I think that is it fading now, but christmas is coming, and the oxford street lights will be up soon. We have already set a day to go see them even when they are so near. I like london in the winter but I think maybe I would like other countries more, I have been to Spain in winter - Christmas and they had the worst rains in 10 years. Somehow I felt guilty, we couldnt go out because it was so hard. In spain on the mountains they have no drains and this means that all the water just sinks in and spoils the houses and leaves cracks in them somehow. Me and mum tried to persuade my grandparents and family to take some stray cats in because there are so many there and they come and beg us at night. The verve are on the radio, that has made me happy. This song is so great. I wrote down how many bands begin with "The" and there are over 30 that I can think of, and maybe I am not too good with music, but I am proud all the same. Also, all of them are very good bands. I must go soon, to buy presents for my friend Becky, I cannot pick presents for her well. I almost always make wire models for people, and then decide they wont like them, so end up giving people painted bowls with marbles in them, I like marbles so much. Maybe I must make her a clay thing. In my house we have made clay faces but half of them and stuck them on the walls so it looks like people are stuck in the walls. We have only three though. Now I have tummy ache. I like tummys. Children often like belly buttons, and draw them in pictures but forget to draw their face and leave them with a head, legs a body and belly button. I think it is maybe because it is a mystical hole in the middle of you. I suppose there is something almost naughty about them to children. Drawings from then for me, are amazing. Often clowns, or hands. When I was little and me and my cat were together, I used to sit in my highchair and then suddenly me and Sebastian (my cat) used to look up to the same point of the room, silent, drop everything we were doing and stare for ages. This is according to my mum. And then just stop and go on like before. I quite like that.I want clogs, but maybe they make too much noise and will draw attention to my feet and my feet are not too attractive.

Hair- What to do?

Last night, I was oh so very bored, and as I usually do, cut my hair. That is not unusual, but, oh no this is the bit, I thought (for some odd reason, that is not yet fully clear, oh why?) "I wonder what I would look like with a fringe". Now the thing is, the turning point is that I have curly hair, twas not a good idea at all, as soon as it was done my hair sprang up, and now I look like a lion. Actually, I like lions, maybe it is not so bad after all, I can become a lion person, and buy nice lion-like clothes. A lion with red dark red hair. That is nice. Yes I like that now.Advertising about mobiles is popping up, everywhere. I do not like them much, though I have one. My family wanted me to incase I got hurt or something family-like. It is a nice idea, but it makes me sad to think that we need things like that just to see if the other is safe. Do you think you can think about anything too much, like this. Nothing can come out of thinking, yes it can, the space in your head is much bigger than the world, people often dream up different lives and egnore the reality, but maybe it is reality in there.